So here we are, in 2021. I don’t know about you but I was determined that this year was going to suck way less than 2020. I know it’s not just magically going to be that way, I’m not that naïve.

I woke up on the first day of the new year pumped! I got my new planner out, filled in all the important things going on in January, got out my goal journal, filled it in for January 1st, started drinking all the water, and cleaned from the party the night before. Everything was going great. Until it wasn’t.

See, 2020 didn’t just pack it’s bags and leave like I’d hoped. The pain from the year, it’s still here. The self doubt, self sabotage, and self loathing, all still present. In the first four days of the new year I’ve felt not good enough, not wanted in certain circles of people, and completely lost. I don’t say all this for pity, I say this so if you’re going through the same thing you’re not alone.

2021 will be what we make of it. I, for one, have decided to control what I can and TRY to ignore the rest. As for the circle I feel not wanted in, clearly those are not my people. It’s a relationship I’ve put everything in to for a while and still feel like I’m being pushed to the outside so I’ve decided to not give all my energy to it like I’ve been doing. I still love and care for the people in that circle but new boundaries have to be set in order to preserve my self and my own energy (isn’t self preservation our number one instinct?).

On a different note, if you actually read my blogs can you drop a like or comment (either here or on Facebook) so I know someone’s actually out there reading these? Thanks!

Much Love, R