This song…where to begin.

I love this song. If you haven’t guessed by now, growing up there were plenty of people around making jokes at my expense. You see, I’m what you might call an “easy target”. As a child I didn’t know I had a voice of my own. My parents were, and still are, pastors. What that meant for my sister and I was that we were held to a higher, usually unrealistic, standard than all the other children we knew. I distinctly remember a time when I was in Sunday school (if you don’t know that is a class usually held before church starts every Sunday morning where you learn Bible lessons) and a question was asked that no one knew that answer to, and like in most classes the teacher decided to call on a student to see if he could get an answer. He picked me. I told him that I really didn’t know the answer to which he replied “you’re the pastor’s daughter, you’re suppose to know this”. It was in that moment that I realized there was an imaginary pedestal and I was seated on it. From that moment on I hid if I didn’t know the answer to something. Frankly, I always hid. I wanted to be invisible and that brought more “mean girls” my way.

There are many things that I have been made fun of from the way I say certain things, the fact that I wear glasses, I’ve been called annoying, short (I’m 5ft 7in for reference), a nerd, a dork, made fun of for my body build, wearing too much make up, not wearing enough make up, called “fat”, told I was too skinny and looked “sick”, being smart, not being smart enough, and on, and on. These things have been going on for as long as I can remember so when I heard this song it stuck.

You see, this song has nothing to do with the 2004 film “Mean Girls” but everything to do with seeing your worth after mean girls have made you believe untrue things about yourself. It is an Christian song so it may not be for everyone but the message is universal. Honestly, the first time I heard this song it brought tears to my eyes. It was like after a lifetime of wondering about my worth this song spoke so deeply to my soul that the hurt seemed to hurt a little less.

Is there a song in your life that changed you when you first heard it and still speaks to you? Let me know what it is in the comments.

Much Love, R