I had a “poor me” moment today…we’ll, if I’m being honest, I had more than one but that’s not important right now.

As I was scrolling social media today I saw an amazing boss mom making great strides in her career. My first thought was “THAT’S AMAZING! I’m so proud of her”. I kept scrolling and my mind starting wondering. I went from being so proud of this momma to feeling so sorry for myself.

I started thinking about how she has a baby and is still crushing her life and how I’m sitting on the couch, while my baby takes a nap, surfing social media. I tried to make a list of all the things I’d accomplished in my life, in that moment, it was a very short pathetic list.

I feel like it’s important to say that I let myself feel those feelings but I did NOT stay there. My husband will tell you that I find it very important to feel all your feelings, even the unhappy ones. I am one person that will tell you that burying your feelings often leads to depression, anger issues, and resentment.

After feeling sorry for myself for a little while I decided to move on. I know I’ve done good things with my life, even if they weren’t as tangible or known. I decided to make a list of things to be proud of, so I did.

• Completed cosmetology school and earned my license
• Passed my driving test the first time (that’s a running joke in my family)
• Carried four babies in my body
• Survived losing two babies
• Married my best friend
• Own and operate a photography business
• Completing a half marathon
• Completing multiple 5K races

Once I took a moment to make a list of my accomplishments I realized that I’ve done things that others can’t even imagine doing. Much like, others have done things I can’t imagine doing. I can’t imagine going to school for 4+ years at my age but I know there are others who can’t imagine losing two babies in 4 months and still wanting to try again. I can’t imagine putting my babies in childcare but others can’t imagine paying to complete 13.1 miles for a shiny medal and a banana.

There are plenty of moments as a stay at home mom when I don’t feel like I’m enough. I feel like I’m not doing good enough for our daughter because she isn’t walking yet ( FYI her physical therapist said she’s perfectly fine, just stubborn. She’ll walk when she wants to, not when she’s pushed to) or I’m not good enough for my husband because the dishes aren’t done when he gets home ( No, he’s never made me feel that way). But, there are also times when I feel like I could take on the world. Like when the house is spotless, our daughter says a new word, or I look in the backyard and see Emma and Bentley’s trees and remember what I’ve survived and how far I’ve come.

Today, if you’re reading this and feeling like you’re not good enough I want you to make your own list. If you can’t make a list or can only list one or two things call someone. Call your partner, your best friend, your mom and be honest. Tell them how you’re feeling I guarantee one (or all) of them will instantly tell you things you may have forgotten that are amazing accomplishments. If reaching out to someone you know isn’t an option, reach out to me. We’ll find your accomplishments together!