I want to start off by saying sorry that I’ve been MIA lately. I’ve been planning our sons baby shower for this weekend (there will be a post all about it next week)!

Today we’re talking about being uncomfortable with someone. In my life there have been and are people who I’m just not comfortable with. Not that they’ve ever done anything to me but my soul just becomes super uneasy around them.

For YEARS I’ve tried my best to ignore it. I don’t talk about it and hardly anyone knows. Recently, I decided to tell my husband about one person that is around a lot. Being in a large group of people with this person there doesn’t bother me too much (I generally avoid being in a one on one situation with them) but there’s been a time when it would just be this person and I.

The days leading up to this encounter had me in a whole different space. I wasn’t me. I snapped at my husband over the littlest things, I tried to find reasons to not be in the situation, and, the most alarming to me, when I stopped and actually thought about how the encounter would go I cried. No, I sobbed. After about 3 or 4 days of this I finally broke down and told my husband.

I know you’re probably wondering why I didn’t tell someone before it got this bad and there is a simple explanation for that. I didn’t want to be “that girl”. You know, the one who can’t stand up for herself or can’t just pull it together. After explaining to my husband how I felt the conversation took on a whole new narrative. My husband never made me feel like “that girl”. He said if I would’ve told him sooner he would’ve done everything he could to make sure the encounter wasn’t even an option. He gave me a way out.

My husband told me that I should never have to “suck it up” if an encounter with someone made me feel like that. I regret not telling him sooner. I carried this weight alone because I was afraid how he may look at me if I told him the truth. My husband is my best friend and I didn’t want my fear to make him think less of me. That was silly of me. He wants to protect me and I took that away from him because of my own insecure thoughts.

The day I told my husband was the day that I learned that it’s ok to be uncomfortable and say something. You don’t have to bottle it up. The people that love and care for you will not think any less of you. They will protect you. When you get the feeling of uneasiness or discomfort around certain people, tell someone. I’m not saying run around and spread negativity, I’m saying find the person who’s there to protect you and tell them. You do not have to carry the fear and anxiety alone.